Well it literally has been forever since I wrote last.
A LOT has happened.
I ended the longest relationship that I ever had, graduated college, moved in with my best friend, and I am moving to LA in January.
Isn't it strange that no one knows where they will be next year, let alone TOMORROW. If I were to go back in time and tell my younger self that I wouldn't be living with Mitch, I would be single for the first time in FIVE years; I wouldn't believe me.
It has, and continues to be a hard journey in finding myself. I thought that I had everything that I ever wanted and that my life was one that people envied, yet I didn't. Shouldn't I love the life I live? I hated it, I felt trapped. Mitch is truly one of the most amazing people I have ever met in my life, and this has nothing to do with him. One day he will make a woman very lucky, that woman just wont be me.
This last semester of college was full of firsts. I met some of the most beautiful people on the planet and whether they like it or not, they are stuck with me for life. Sorry SPICE GIRLS.
That is why I am writing this blog.
The past seven months have quite honestly been the hardest I have ever had to handle. It is difficult learning to be you without someone else there to hold your hand or kiss you goodnight. Instead of a boyfriend, I got girlfriends and for the first time in my time here in Chico I felt like I could be myself around other people and not be...weirdly different, for lack of better words.
My beautiful friends are the reason I get up every morning. Miia, Ruth, Jessica, and Julia. I love you with all my heart. I know that I haven't been the greatest friend these past couple of weeks, but thank you for bearing with me and helping me through this. I don't know what we are going to do without each other. I will push that thought to the back of my mind and turn it off for now. I don't want to spend these next couple of weeks that we have together in this funk, and I know you all wont let me.
Love you guys.
"If you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends,
Make it last forever friendship never ends."
That was pretty corny. get over it.
