The Night is Young

Well, as I sit here in my tiny two bedroom apartment where everyone is peacefully dreaming I am awake creating a blog, and wondering why... why must I post my feelings on the internet for the world to read. I find that all my thoughts are a little random and crazy lately.

Like what I am going to do after college...okay that isn't random, but to me its a little crazy. I can't help but think there is a reason why I stayed in school for another year and that is COMFORTABILITY. I am afraid of the 'real world,' whatever that means. I thought that I had my plans figured out.

I was going to go to URTAs this February and audition for graduate MFA programs at wonderful schools like most Thespians from our department do. However, I can't see myself there. That's a problem...right? I mean I should know 100% that I want to spend another 2-3 years in school and I don't. SO plan B.

MOVE to Hollywood!

O dear what am I thinking! This is nuts. I have always wanted to and I know that in my heart I will love it there, but I am so...peeing my pants (for lack of a better term). I know that my dream of becoming an actress may seem a little far fetched to some, but that is all I have ever wanted to be in my entire life. Ever since I dressed up my little brother when we were in diapers, and I wrote plays and musicals to show family members. I have such an amazing support system who loves me and believes in me, I think that the problem is: I don't believe in myself sometimes, okay most of the time. So this is going to happen. Mitch, Koda, Indie, and I are heading to Hollywood after we graduate so I can be the actress that I always hoped I could be.

My Dad always told me I could be anything if I put my heart into it. I'm taking the leap Dad, finally I can't keep holding myself back.

But for now, until the end of this last year of college...yikes. I will be giving it all I got, not for anybody else but myself. I think thats the point of this blog- finding who I am, so won't you join me on my crazy adventure, hopefully I can keep you entertained:)

Until next time my fellow night dwellers...